Devoid of inspiration

It's a familiar tune, The breaking of the heart. Like longing for the moon, Too far. Too hard..... Happiness is fleeting, Moments of reprieve. The hardest part is knowing, Sadness. Far from brief..... You smile and I laugh, And you are yet unknowing. Another facade, another bluff, Once more you are falling. Your smile spells despair, My laughter rings of sorrow. Bleakness is all but rare, When the heart is hollow.......

Yes it's true, I'm devoid of inspiration; now even the words no longer flow.....

Selfishly desperate thoughts

Khudaya vey . . . ishq hai kaisa yeh ajeeb rey . . . . Dil ky kareeb laya dil ka naseeb rey . . . . I seek, seek to be yours, fight, fight to be yours . . . Ankhoun sey khwab ruthay, apnoun ky sath chutay . . . . Dream, dream it was that you and me together. . . Pyasay tarap rahay hain, sahil kareeb rey . . . Near, near you are to me but until i open my eyes after that the distance between us is more then i can even consider thinking of. . . Reach, you aren't my destination and reach i can towards you but somehow i don't want to somehow everything i desire everything i thought was mine i don't want it anymore. . . Dil ky kareeb laya dil ka naseeb . . . . Feelings, felt you so close last night . . . Yet i say you aren't mine yet sometimes even feeling such things i show my desperateness to be with you . . . My words never make sense, this time yet again i leave my love . . . My feelings. . . My care . . . My emotions for you in these dots . . . Hoping you to understand . . . Hoping you to shed some tears for me . . . Hoping you to remember me even if its just for 5 minutes . . . yes i learnt 5 minutes are more then enough . . . . Khudaya vey hayeee, ishq hai yeh kaisa ajeeb . . . . . . . . . . I sound so selfish naah, kya kroun shahyad hai mayri aarzo kamini . . . Mayray khwab bhi kaminay . . . Is dil sey ab toh sada bhi aa rahi hai key . . . . Yeh hazoor bhi KAMINAY . . . . .

Seduce A Girl

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Well this video says it all, the other thing which attracts her towards a guy is being famous :p

She cares

Take everything away
Won’t you ease my pain?
The light inside will start to fade
You and I will both forget
The things you said no longer runnin’ through my mind

As the rain pours down,
My tears fall
Our memories together, they’re all gone
The pain is at ease
But it’s not you who’s there
Unlike you, she cares

Aaj din chadhya

Aaj mosam bohat acha hai.. ami kehtien hain achay mosam mai khush khush rehna chaiya hai.... :D And subah sey am all ladooooo and high ajeeb sa woh bhi :p Kuj kerna kurna toh honda nahi hai rotiyan torni aandi hain mainu but aaj kal am actually working on a project... am desiging a CORPORATE IDENTITY (for people who don't know what corporate identity is, it is the main thing of a company, like its logo, spelling of its name, its main header, paper design, business card design and other stuff) for a NGO which is going to open soon... So thats why RICKETY ARTS ka kaam not hoingz. But this is almost done so soon inshallah all your requests would be completed so just bear few more days :) .....

Ok so as the mood was high and i was singing and dancing around (suchi main) .... even when i was driving the car thought would share some songs with you people which are like suchi mai awesome !!! and am in love with them.... and some of them are happy high songs :)

so do give all these songs a listen you can trust me on this ....

(click on the song to driectly download it) :D

	Khudaya Ve
	Jee Le

	Dhan Te Nan
	Pehli Baar Mohabbat
	Kaminey
	Raat Ke Dhai Baje

	Twist
	Chor Bazaari
	Aahun Aahun
	Dooriyan
	Ajj Din Chadheya
	Main Kya Hoon

I am in love with most of these songs... and oh do remind me in few days i'll upload an exclusive songs just for you people...

anyways me back to my work.... itnay achay mosam mai kaam :( ... per well atleast am being usefull :p

I'll leave you all with one of my favourite song!!!

Ajj din chadheya tere rang warga, phul sa hai khila aaj din mayra..... Rabba mere din yeh na dhale woh jo mujhe khawab mein mile, use tu lagade ab gale tenu dil da vasta....

And ufff these lines are just so close to my heart....
Baksha gunaho ko, Sun ke duwao ko, Rabba pyaar hai tune sab ko hi de diya... Meri bhi aahon ko sun le duwao ko mujhko woh dila mene jisko hai dil diya........

Manga jo mera hai jata kya tera hai, Mene kaun si tujhse jannat mang li... Kaisa khuda hai tu bas naam ka hai tu, Rabba jo teri itni si bhi na chali......

Chahiye jo mujhe, kar de tu mujhko ata..... ker day tu mujhko ataaa *hayeeeee* ................

Abandoment

It took just one night
For me to change
In just one night,
I went from popular to strange

I no longer smiled
I no longer talked
Instead I just walked
Block after block

I sat alone
And wiped a tear from my cheek
No friends anymore
Though it’d been less then a week

I guess it wasn’t your fault
How were you to know?
That you were killing me more
Then I ever would show

You’d promised you’d stay,
Stay till the end
But I guess you’d forgotten
How I once was a friend

The day I became scared
And I pulled away
Was the day you all said, “let’s give him some space”
But said that again, day after day.

You left me
When I needed you most
And now I am what?
Nothing but a ghost.

You left me,
to cut into my wrist
when I needed a friend
to help me resist

I needed you, friend
When I was crying
I needed you, friend
When I was dying

Abhi Dard Baki hai

Abhi woh dard baki hai...... Agarchay waqt marham hai, magar kuch waqt lagta hai.... kisi ko bhool janay main, dobara dil basane main, abhi kuch waqt lagna hai, abhi woh dard baki hai.... mai kaisay naiee ulfat main, apni zaat gum ker doun, key maryay jism-o-wijdaan main abhi woh fard baki hai.... abhi toh ishq kay rastoun ki mujh par gard baki hai, Abhi woh dard baki hai.......


Note: Nothing to do with me read previous post pls.....

YES

Yes, am going to stop it now, no not the emo writing, or the posts with lots of indian songs in it, and depressing words which make me look stupid and weak, to stop that i don't know how to :s... But YES the thing which is going to change is that now i won't write the way i use to do.... Now my words would be just fiction... Nothing else... Would have no meaning to me... It won't have my heart and soul in it. It would be just words... simple words .... without any meaning to me. YES they would be phokay words.... per anyways.... Its final... And YES i was vanished for like 3 - 4 days now... pata nahi where, pata nahi why.... what i was doing woh bhi pata nahi... i just know that.... khair screw it... Mainey abhi bohat alaaaaa shwerma khaya from a new resturant... and oh that place has awesome food.... i have tried like everything on their menu. Well almost everything.... YES i love food.... and YES this post is stupid... per YES i have made my mind... i won't feel while i write... i'll just write crap.... whatever i THINK of, NOT feel of.... theek hai ??

YES, theek hai... (bohat ziyada yes nahi ho gaya kya ??)

and oh yeah planning to close this blog as well.... its just stupid.... simply stupid!!!

Am a bad guy

I am the guy that you see hold the door open and be nice about it when people go by and yell and make fun of me.
I am the guy that when he sees a person cry instead of doing nothing about it, even though it’s none of his business I get a tissue to at least help them.
I am the guy that when he sees a very beautiful girl in front of him he compliments her by saying she’s beautiful as the nicest I can.
I am the guy which shares everything with people whom i am close to just so they could feel the comfort of being with their own.
I am the guy that wants a picture with his friends so when it’s the future I remember better times.
I am the guy that when I stand in front of a mirror I try to think I am a bad guy, just so i won't become over confident about it or be proud of it.
But now, in reality, I am considered a bad guy, a stalker!
What’s wrong with this world, or may be i am the one who is actually wrong?
Tell me!! I'll change... change for you... change for the best, just don't hate me for being myself!!!!


P.S (random note) Listen to this: FREE FALLING.....

A Sweet Dedication

Well SOMEONE(:p) dedicated this song to me, and am in so love with it....

How can I love you more

Mere sang to chal zara
Kyon dekhe dara dara

Chal tujhko aa chupa lu
Chal khwaab kuch saja du
Teri in nigahon mein

Mein jo sang hoon
Tere rang hoon
Rahon se teri chun loon mein khwaab
Har lamha yun guzre ke gehra hota jaaye pyaar

How can I love you more

Hasde zara sa to teri haseen se
Mere kal ho haaseen
Bas itna mein chahun is zingagi se zyadaa kuch nahi

Mein jo sang hoon
Tere rang hoon
Rahon se teri chun loon mein khwaab
Har lamha yun guzre ke gehra hota jaaye pyaar

Ruk Na Raho mein
Roke Agar kal tujhe Parchaiyan
Sang tere mein bhi hoon
Tanha nahi hai Teri Tanhaiyan

Mein jo sang hoon
Tere rang hoon
Rahon se teri chun loon mein khwaab
Har lamha yun guzre ke gehra hota jaaye pyaar

Mere sang to chal zara
Kyon dekhe dara dara

Chal tujhko aa chupa lu
Chal khwaab kuch saja du
Teri in nigahon mein

Mein jo sang hoon
Tere rang hoon
Rahon se teri chun loon mein khwaab
Har lamha yun guzre ke gehra hota jaaye pyaar

Mein jo sang hoon
......................

And katrina is looking so uff here, and this song does have a meaning and it definitly is a delightful one...

Love, Sex, Money and blood...

Yeah well this picture does depict what am trying to say.... almost depicts and oh yeah her shoes relate to the money part i think :s .... And i know while reading the title fati you would say aa gaya apni aukaat mai :p... Per seriously all these things are related i was watching a really sick and pathetic movie infact ultimate pathetic movie FRIDAY THE 13th .... wtf na sir tha na mou... All it had were some sexy chicks which looked more like sluts and did all the sex and stuff and the others which were cute and didn't show most of the things were the heroine, everybody could guess who the heroines were just coz of this... And the movie started from the orignal story like where did JASON came from and stuff... And then the movie started with like two hot chicks their boy friends and a nerd looking for weed and then it continued with people showing their THINGS... COME ON can't you make a horror movie without showing everything in it ??? Anyways... it continued and stuff happened then more stuff happened when more people came then again stuff happened then jason was killing people up in ultimate gross way!! It was suppose to be scary but all it was pervertive and gore nothing else.... And well this time pehli baar the love was for a sister and not for a bandi :p and oh yeah there was a rich guy in it who was showing off his money... but he dies too... at the end hero doesn't die nor the heroine (the sister) ... and they kill jason per to show that a sequel can come they didn't actually kill jason...

So anyone who is interested in the movie, pls watch tom and jerry instead or better scooby doo coz this movie isn't worth it!!

Yeah i know its a stupid post with no sense but like who cares... and waisey money sab kuch hai naah ?? Money bring love in your life, it brings sex as well you can always pay a slut, and oh yeah money gets you killed as well :D

so kidhay kol inna paisa hai jinoun maran da shok hoye ?? Mainu apna pata das dayvay mai unhoun aapaay hi nibat laivaan gaa :d

well am high since last night i want to stop writing this post per i just can't... i was suppose to upload the picture of cookies which mom made, per i forgot the cam at home and am at my nano's place for the weekend...

uh uh uh!! I feel like eating pizza... with lots of olives mushrooms and cheese :D

and oh lost 14kgs ... going for more (pretend no one read this coz i know all the comments would come related to this :p)

anybody in the mood to see Obsessed ?? No ?? Too bad mai toh vaikhan jaa ravan houn!!

and oh yeah am getting spanish lessons as well Hola readers costa estos ?? tonta huh ?? :p

weren't we talking about how love and sex happens ?? No we weren't i better shut up!! Before people call me tharki :p

By the way listen to this: KAMINAY (its a really awesome song i dedicate to all the kameenays out there :p)

And karma just suggested me one song which i would like all of you to hear as well: I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
Intahai lovy dovy song hai aur cute bhi bilkul maylaay jaisa :p

Positive Entrance

I like what I do, I do what I like.
PETRIFIED - FORT MINOR

But you can say what you want about me,
Keep talkin' while I'm walking away;
You can say what you have to say,
'Cause my mind's made up anyway
I'm taking the high road, going above you,
This is the last time that I'm gonna trust you.
You can say what you have to say,
'Cause my mind's made up anyway.
All that bullshit you talk might work a lot,
But it's not gonna work today~
HIGH ROAD - FORT MINOR

I guess, that this is where we've come to,
If you don't want to,
Then you don't have to believe me, But I,
Won't be there when you go down.
Just so you know now,
You're on your own now believe me.
BELIEVE ME - FORT MINOR

Love is hard, but that's alright,
Give it time, it's worth the ride
You know it's all in the way of;
You're looking at me, I'm looking at you,
What more do you want?
Show me some positivity, It's all I got,
Its leading me on, can't leave it alone.
Show me some positivity,
You're making it harder then it has to be,
So wont you please show me, some positivity.
POSITIVITY - ASHLEY TISDALE

I don't ever wanna be you,
Dont wanna be just like you.
Oh, what I'm saying is;
This is the anthem, throw all your hands up,
You, dont wanna be you!
THE ANTHEM - GOOD CHARLOTTE

I JUST WANT TO LIVE
GOOD CHARLOTTE

If it's over, let it go and, come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday,
I'm just a bird that's already flown away~
Laugh it off let it go and when you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday,
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay?
If you're over me, I'm already over you,
If it's all been done, what is left to do?
How can you hang up if the line is dead?
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead,
If you're moving on, I'm already gone,
If the light is off then it isn't on~
At least not today, not today, not today, 'cause~
SO YESTERDAY - HILARY DUFF

Let the rain fall down, and wake my dreams,
Let it wash away, my sanity.
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder, I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down,
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean.
COME CLEAN - HILARY DUFF

[Hey, hey] I'm not giving up, no,
Gonna stand up and shout it!
Oh~ no way I'm not slacking off or backing out or cracking up with doubt,
I'm workin' it out.
It's hard enough to be what you are,
Harder to be what you're not,
It's hard to know what you need to get,
Harder to know what you've got.
WORKING IT OUT - HILARY DUFF

Why not, take a star from the sky?
Why not, spread your wings and fly?
It might take a little, and it might take a lot.
But why not? Why not?
WHY NOT - HILARY DUFF


An attempt to show that yes i can be positive sometimes :p and oh by the way i HATE, simply HATE hilary duff as a SINGER.... but all these are the lyrics which i personally like :)

Shoot me =/

Kis qadar ajheeran hai yeh silsila-e-ishq bhi faraz
Muhabbat to qaim rehti hai magar insaan toot jatay hain......

Doomed to a destiny of distrust forever lost in a sea of what once was another heart broken and it was nothing new. This time, words can mend no more, shallow comments, wordless tears, and my thoughts lead to a common fear. The truth this time cannot be denied, this pain is so overwhelming that i cannot hide. Forever has ended this sad day, but the memories of the past are here to stay. Yes never forgotten will be your love, like a treasured angel from above. Somehow i am feeling like I've taken a flying leap, this hurt, a wound, running true and deep and your absence growing day by day.... I don't know what to express i don't what to write, thoughts come and go. I am not sad all the time, nor am happy all the time yes i am content sometimes. I can honestly say, that you have been in my mind since i woke up today. All day long i was looking at your picture. I shouldn't have restored all my data back in my mobile, it wasn't meant to happen, but yes i was foolish. And i woke up today and played our song and even sang along, i kept gazing at your photograph even knowing that am just waisting my time, I felt like remembering everything but the one thing i wish i could forget, the memory i wanna forget is you saying me goodbye, the day when we departed.... Sometimes words don't express what actually i feel. Like the current moment i ain't regreting anything nor i am wishing you to come back, am just simply missing you, which is still not a crime. But the way things are going to give birth to a third child has a tax on it and on the fourth there is a penalty a day will come that even there would be a tax for me to remember you, or for others to remember about the person whom they truly loved. I WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU HAI NAA ?? Well who cares at the moment i ain't good enough for anyone i know :p

Waisey I've had enough with streaks of tears, they've left a river down my cheek.... And when I'm talking no one hears, don't listen to the words I speak. These days I do blend in with all my adaptions, No on can tell that I'm in pain. I drown in tears of agony even if i am a guy i don't have regrets in saying it. I do drown in tears of agony at every mention of your name. Your name still haunts my memories, in mind, my thoughts, in sleep, my dreams..... Look deep into my eyes, I'm not the guy you might have seen (well i know you can't see through me anymore). No stitches to sew up my wounds, my heart will never heal, or maybe it would infact yes it would heal but till some extent.... So see of me what you want to see, I know exactly how i feel, and i better not express..............

**** You

Note: swearing would completely be tried to be kept at a minimum......

first of all i would request you all to say deligently a wonderful line with me, with the honesty of your heart, with the depth of your emotions and with the sincerity of living in pakistan...

"WAPDA DI PEHN NU ________"

You all be wondering where i was, yeah i know none of you would be missing my presence :p, per kehn vich ki janda hai yaaro.... I was like being irritated, agitated, torn, twisted and petrified along with dying in heat and suffering of not coming online at my place.... Yesterday the electricity of my place went at like 4 am in the morning and came back at 8pm next day, and oh let me remind you my water comes from the land through a motor without electricity no water.... Then today it went at like 8.30 am then came back at 2.30pm then went away at 3pm again and came back at 6 (love you naah)... After that when electricity came my fucking internet wasn't working.... and i was fucking getting bored and irritated. FInally that worked like an hour ago.... And well am here... so sorry for not visiting your blog and not replying to your mail will do that soon :)

And oh yeah i got a belated birthday gift from an old friend in england she sent me this:


Yeah well its an expensive gift but people who are far away still do love me :p .... This mobile phone name is Nokia N95.... Well am loving it :) ..... Especially its 5mp camera :-D ....

And people who have their requests awaiting pls do wait more, i'll get back to you soon :)

Cut out my tongue

Cut out my tongue so i could taste the blood.
Pulled out my eyes so i could see past the hell.
Sewed my lips shut so I couldn't lie.
Bound my arms so I couldn't reach out,
And tied my feet so I wouldn't walk out.

I'm not fucking going anywhere
Keep cutting me up,
The pieces don't move by themselves.

So odd how my dreams come true.
The nightmares, the fantasies
They're all the same to me.
Chains wrapped around my neck,
you tell me, is this happy or fear?
What emotion comes to your head?

I'm holding in this last choking breath
Cough, Cough, its gone.
Well damn that sucks, I guess thats too bad
Sucking in water instead;
Through the thread keeping my mouth closed
Won't say any words I don't mean,
Won't say anything.

Purple circles underneath these sockets
No cash flow in these shallow pockets.
Wanna pat me down,
Don't have anything to hide
Cept this mind of mine full of the sickest shit
Mother fucker, you don't know the half of it.

Cut out my tongue so i could taste the blood,
Pulled out my brown eyes so I could see past this hell
Sewed my lips shut so I couldn't lie.
Bound my arms so I couldn't reach out,
And tied my feet so i couldn't walk out,
but you threw me in the ocean to drown.

(something which i ain't proud of, nor my style, i guess first and last of this thingy)