Beep! Beep! - it's me!

BAAAAA bakra!!

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 15:10:00 +0000

Asma talked about the bakra's so i thought i'd share the fotography which i did... yeah my bakra's were modeling for me :p :p :p per out of 4 only two were good models =D

check them out ;)

HE EATS!!!! :p

HE STARES!!!! :p

Yeh marta tha :( is liye is ko band ker diya =D

Yeh gichii tairi ker key poze maar raha tha ;)

Last one but my favourite... its called "THE ROMANTIC ASHIQ" :p :p

ab kisi ney mujhey dekhna ho toh woh bhi bata day :p :p :p

Bakra Eid Mubarik

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 09:17:00 +0000

yeah right eid mubarik :)

sitting in my locked room.... haan i can't watch kurbani ya phir see bakra being shreaded....

watching a movie which i shouldn't had ATLEAST not today... "REQUIEM FOR A DREAM"

anyways................. EID MUBARIK TO EVERYONE!!

Burned with desire

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 12:52:00 +0000

When you touched my face
When you call my name
I'm burned with desire
But you left me in the rain

For every sleepless night
Forever in your arms
For every hour spent
Lost in the revery

You broke your promises
No shame and no regrets
You burned the bridges too
An endless mystery

When you touched my face
So beautiful
When you call my name
My name..
I'm burned with desire

BUT YOU LEFT ME IN THE RAIN

Malaal

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 16:20:00 +0000

"Ek sham tera khayal bari dair tak raha,

dil dard say nidhaal bari dair tak raha,

panay ki jo khushi this woh toh aarzi rahi...

bicharnay ka malaal bari dair tak raha...."

Per na ab us ko kisi sey shikayat hai na ab kisi sey gilaa.... Bas ab apnay aap sey rutha huwa hai woh... haan janta hai woh key is haal, is kaifiyaat ka faida nahi... per phir bhi koshish kerta hai key apnay aap ko sambhalay...bazahir khush hai woh laikin ek such bataoun... wo ander sey bohat "Toota hua hai".... Ab toh bohat muddat sey aisa hai key woh khamosh rehta hai... koi gehra ranj hai us ko shayad... jissy chup chaap sehta hai... yunhi chaltay huay tanha, koi ghamgeen sa naghma... woh aksar gungunahta hai... doran-e-guftagu yunhi milain nazroun sey jab nazrein toh woh batein bhool jata hai.... kisi gum sum si halat main, ya phir barish key mausam main fakat itna hi kehta hai "Udasi be-waja si hai, bohat bojhal tabiyat hai"... bhala sach kyun nahi kehta key usay "Malaal" hai...

Kyun nahi kehta key

Us bin sard lag raheen hain

yeh november ki khunk raatain

yeh malaal bojhal ker raha hai

uski pur nam palkain

Uski kadmoon ki chaap

kia ab kabhi na sunai dey gi

iss sawal se dub dubba gae hain

is key dil ki anginit dharkanain....

iss malaal ki karwahat is ko

muskuranay nahi deytee

iss malaal ki dilkashee isay

munh pheray nahi deytee

Kyun nahi kehta key

"yeh malaal hi ab tum ho

yeh malaal hi ab mai hoon

yeh malaal hi ab hum hai

be nishan, bad gumaan, tanha."

Lutf-e-zindagi

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 05:08:00 +0000

Two faced people are easily available in this world.... Even its hard to judge that whom to trust and who are your friends.... Khair...
Mujhey mehsoos hota hai key,Lutf-e-zindagi kam hai
Gham-e-dil had sey bhar ker hain, mu'yaasar ab khushi kam hai
Musalsal dil ki be-chayni ko kya kehtay ho dil walo?
Tumhein maloom ho shayad, mujhey toh aa gaahi kam hai
Ab is key baad jism oh jaan ko jalanay sey bhi kya haasil
charaghoun main lahoo jalta hai phir bhi roshni kam hai
Jisay bhi DOST samjha, dushman-e-emaan oh jaan thehra
Nahi hai dosti jis sey, usi sey dushmani kam hai!..................

Anyways talked to SOMEONE after a very very long time... felt good.... pata nahi.... won't say much it was just <3

Oh mayri jaan

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 18:35:00 +0000

Na tum ho bewafaa

Na mein bhi hun

Phir bhi hain hum judaa

Main kya kahoon

Na jaane waqt ki marzi hai kya

Kyun hai mili yeh dooriyan

O meri jaan…o meri jaan

Kuch tum mujhse khafa

Kuch main bhi hun

Hai kya iski wajah

Main kya kahun

Na jaane waqt ki marzi hai kya

Kyun hai mili yeh dooriyan

O meri jaan…o meri jaan

Tujhe dil se tha chaaha

Tu hi toh na mil paaya

Khushi mujhko chal si jaati hai

Mere tu tha sarmaaya

Tujhe paaka na paaya

yahi baatein chubh si jaati hain

Tanhaa teri tarah haan main bhi hun

Donon hain gamzadaa main kya kahun

Na jaane waqt ki marzi hai kya

Kyun hai mili yeh dooriyan

O meri jaan…o meri jaan

O meri jaan

Naked and torn

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 06:02:00 +0000

When they look at me with such intensity, its like i'm stripped down to my soul and my hands are clutching myself... in vain... in desperate attempt, but spinning out of control. And its like i'm all alone with no one by my side (i know its not true but still), trying to cover myself with something..anything.... I don't want to feel the cool air on my skin.... I don't want to look like i've been crying..... But do you know how its like to be so naked? Its a sort of nudity that goes into the core, penetrates into the core of your soul and conscience makes you reflect on the shame you've felt before......

I am a psyco, am mad, retarded i guess.... I'm starting to imagine them pointing at me laughing at me and i wish i could be invisible.... This hallucination's slowly killing me, the thought of survival is almost critical.

And i know my thoughts are no longer clear... I run around with desperate fear.. The voices speak loudly in my head making me wish that I was dead... Slowly thinking I’m going crazy, finding everyone thinking the same but at the end of the day I know…

I'm stripped.
Naked and torn.

Happy birthday fama

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 07:02:00 +0000

Happy birthday Fatima.... happy birthday toooo you :D

is sey ziyada main aur kuch nahi likh raha :p card dekh ker enjoy kero... aur party sharty kero

I don't wish to give a title :p

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 00:56:00 +0000

Yeah well full time band baji hui hai.... coz of the bandages and stuff, ok so i was about to tell what happened... yeah well i'll tell you the story what everyone knows .... So the OFFICIAL story which the people at home and others except my university friends know is that I fell from the stairs which were like 8 feet high landed on my feet pressure para thats why got injured... so thats why in this state... and in real *sigh* lets not talk about that per the real height was 8 feets in length and 14 feet high... and i actually didn't fall bus kuch hua... khair choro!!

So the presentation went well... and a really good friend of mine Anam was leaving LSE going to LMDC for BDS so we gave her a farewell... had lots of fun there, although after coming back home my foot was completely purple and stuff... anyways here are some pictures and a video....

If anyone of you can guess what am about to do and note the height... that would be amazing :p

After the THING happened =$

My present condition =/

Yes it hurts alot

="(

My new lappy

My Manager/Agent look :p

I had to get two injections just so i could come to university and present =(

After the presentation was over we went treated anam to a farewell party... although whole class wasn't there but still we were alot!!

The table dance :p

Me and Anam... oyee i'll miss you :(

Group photo

Ok so now the song video

SOMEONE everything i uploaded here is basically for you, yes i do miss you alot... things are bad at my side.... you know what i am still there for you... per today i need you and you aren't with me :(

14-11-09

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 05:57:00 +0000

Black Suiting
White shirt
Black tie
Hair - spikes
Laptop in hand
Not able to stand
Bandaged right knee and thigh
Feather fracture tape on left foot
Flu
Cough
Fever 102
Stress full time
6 hours left for psychaterist appointment time *sigh*
Final presentation of communication skills in 20 minutes
Nervous about the presentation - thora thora
Blogging - aiween

Ain't my life exciting?

Distance won't kill friendship

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 22:04:00 +0000

Miles apart from you

Driving on this lonely road

Friendless and alone again

Waiting for the scenery to change again

Moving far from those I love

From those I care about

I suppose it’s time to tell you then

No matter where I move

No matter how far away

You will always be my friends

Until my dying day

I always will remember

The good times

And the bad

The times that you were happy

The times that you were sad

Though distance may get longer

You’re always in my heart

Through thick and thin

Until the end

You’ll always be my friend

Miles stretching longer

The distance seems so great

But memories cross any distance

Beat any length of time

Cause in my heart, you’ll always be friends of mine

So with that I’m here to say

Never fret the distance

Don’t shed any of your tears

Just look into your heart

Memories last for years

SOMEONE

i miss you alot

Let the music play

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 02:35:00 +0000

Life has its music; let us seek a way - not to jangle the chords whereon we play.

So let the music play .....

Denial

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 00:54:00 +0000

Sleepless, lightless,

I've been waiting for you

In secret, counting the hours

Until the morning sun

How would you love now what's inside of me

I wonder how we don't have to be anything else but this

Let's end this denial

Need you, Feel you

Breathing on me,

Feeling us fading

I'm waiting for you to come home

I felt the light touch, will keep us together, satisfied

You light up my path, speeding the hours

You heal me somehow

Let's end this denial

Hear me calling, I'm going, seeking

Time is flowing slowly when you're not around

The heart is rifting, do make us willing

You're spending up my hours until we're not alright

Let's end this denial

Hear me calling...

Let's end this denïal ...

Emotional Stress

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 22:44:00 +0000

OMG i didn't even knew that there was any such thing, per well there is. For the past couple of weeks i have been having issues that whenever i get angry, nervous, sad, think too much, scream, in panic situations and when i am giving presentation my eyes become full time red (not the red wala red per the khoony i mean bloody red like there is blood in my eyes), cheeks red (like i am blushing =$), hands cold (as cold as ice), whole body shaking, severe headache and my words start stuttering.... yeah lol this is the exact condition of me in such conditions.... First i thought its nothing its just that am giving presentation debating so i become afraid or something but then i remembered i have been debating in many universities and stuff i never had such stuff... So i went to the doctor... and lol she says i have emotional stress :p, ok so she starts explaining me:

Emotional stress: A condition which occurs when a person is under stress affecting their emotions

Cause of emotional stress:

Generalized anxiety disorder
–Excessive worry associated with at least three symptoms, including restlessness or edgy feeling, fatigue, difficulty concentrating, irritability, muscle tension, sleep disturbance
–The most common anxiety disorder in primary care
Panic disorder
–Recurrent, unpredictable panic attacks with intense apprehension, fear or terror, and somatic symptoms (e.g., tachycardia)
–May present with or without agoraphobia
Depression: Anxiety often presents in a mixed state with depression
Obsessive-compulsive disorder
–Obsessions are persistent ideas, images, or impulses that generate anxiety
–Compulsions are intentional repetitive behaviors or mental acts aimed at reducing the distress of obsessions
Social anxiety disorder
Bipolar disorder

Lol i guess she thinks that am bipolar now :p naah... ok on serious notes this is one really weird thing... according to her i sleep, yet am not sleeping (i sound cuckoo naah) per yeah she checked and said that i am sleep but my brain doesn't get rest i am active like sleep walking, talking, replying to text (yes i reply to text while am sleeping and that too with full punctuations =$) but *sigh* i don't remember anything when i get up :( Anyways... i have like got 4 kind of fun medics... 3 different laxotnals and one more something to do with nervous system. Lol it feels like am a psycho patient =$

Why am i writing this post up i don't know bore ho raha tha maybe... or just felt like writing somethings up.... its been ages since i wrote a long post waisey bhi :p

University is going weird i hate two faced people and there are alot of them... and well i think i have gone their to fight with people... yesterday i had a fight with a guy (4th fight till i joined university) and yet again... i wasn't one at the fault... i didn't even lift my hand coz DC betha daytay... so anyways i was right and didn't do anything so the whole class with me and not with the other classfellow... per well *sigh* am so tired of fighting with people... waisey hi kal tabiyat kharab thee... and had been very low and kind of heart broken since few days uper sey shit... and other class fellows are just too fake and two faced i hate it... i really hate it... Most of the guys of my class have issues with me, and you really don't wanna know the reason :p ... they think i stop girls to interact with them, coz all girls listen to me :p :p itna foolish and childish reason ki wajah sey :( khair....

my head hurts :(

and oh yeah i wrote something two hours ago mayray TUNN honay sey pehley :p per ab phir ankh khul gayee even after those medics :( ... khair

I'm so,so very tired.
And I want to turn this computer off,
I'm sure you won't mind if I don't say goodnight,
The one light I keep on,
Is going to be off tonight,
And the fan that keeps it freezing in here,
Will be off as well.

Not one light.
Not one sound.
That is,of course,
Unless you count the sound of my phone vibrating under my pillow.
I purposely left it on vibrate tonight,instead of on silent,
I want to keep hearing you call,

I want to keep hearing the sound of your text messages flooding my inbox,
Keep trying to pry your way deeper into my heart,
Isn't being etched there for the rest of my life enough?

For the first few times,
I'll stare at my phone while it rings,
While your name flashes across the screen,
And that goofy picture of you is the only thing making me smile now,
As my head starts to ache,my throat grows tight,and eyes begin to burn,

The medication taking over,

Feels like am on drugs.

I'm so very tired,
I've hit another low in my life,
Right when I thought things were straightening out,
And I had complete confidence in this,in us, in my best friend
With this low,I'll just roll over,
Force my eyes shut,
Clutch this pillow,
Listen to my phone ring,
As can't move the body now to pick it up,
Am so numb,
So i'll try to stop thinking,
I'll try to stop feeling,
And I'll just sleep.

Because,
In all honesty,
My head hurts pretty much....
I'm so very tired....

Posted from my phone (yes i know main bohat khwaar houn to write this long from my cell phone)

P.s I got a new lappy =D ... and ohh haan dad is back from dubai too :) :s :-( =) *mixed emotions*

Currently listeing to Denial - Airbase featuring floria ambra remixed by tiesto

Friends - forever they'll stay

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 06:45:00 +0000

Running though the dark

Alone and dreary

You start to slowdown

Now feeling weary

You stop and take a look ahead

And become shocked at the sight

All of your feelings become intense

Your emotions run wild, but you still give them a fight

For what you see in front of you are your friends

All standing there willing to lend you a hand

You try to turn them away, lying, saying that you’re fine

But they won’t leave, forever by you they will stand

Friends are like angels

They will stay until you’re all right

They’ll stay no matter what

Even if it takes all night

They’ll always be here for you

They’ll never turn away

They’re here for you

And forever they’ll stay

Where are my friends?

I see few of them,

but what about the ones which make all the promises,

the ones which say would never leave you,

the ones which show so much love for a moment,

i guess they aren't worth it!!

Last paragraph added after i lost two closest of my friends... per like nimzZz said, if they leave you for such minor things they never considered you a friend just a time pass who would keep them happy... So as usual am one of the best play toys available, coz am helpful :)... khair!!! Not feeling well! And *sigh* dad coming back today... i should be happy or sad can't distinguish... per lol i always have this mixed feelings about him =)

P.s finally its getting chilly!!

Fades Away

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 00:45:00 +0000

Seen a warrior’s burst of rage
seen a martyr’s life outgrow his age
seen vile in great men
seen beauty in false women
seen rivals of a genius
seen tyrants hailed among us
seen the envy of a friend
seen love draw its own end

Seen a rainbow fade when it should stay
seen a summer wait for the next may
seen a leave wither from its youth
seen weathers play with our moods

seen a victim plead for his right
seen a culprit with his last lie
seen guilty hands turn to pray
seen aggression overwhelmed by grace

But the world just doesn’t run on grace
In the crowd, you’re just another face
when you’re gone, you dont ever leave a trace

seen faith take hold of our reason
seen wisdom go out of season
seen hatred for a chosen prophet
seen sacrifices with regret

seen ironies turn to the truth
seen lies bearing the fruits
seen impact of just a thought
seen actions ending with naught

But the world just doesn’t run on grace
In the crowd, you’re just another face
when you’re gone, you dont ever leave a trace

seen voices live longer than singers
seen a maestro play with bleeding fingers
seen life in a dead man’s painting
seen victors go down fainting

But the world just doesn’t run on grace
In the crowd, you’re just another face
when you’re gone, you dont ever leave a trace

Like a whistle it fades away

This song is one of my favourites... so thought would share it.... Just note the lyrics they are deep... Somehow people just don't get it!! But i love this one.... hayee here i go now....

A mirror shatters and falls... It's written all over the walls... Daggers pierce the mind... Making joy difficult to find... Darkness consumes the light... Filling the heart with true fright... Spining colors swirl about... Haze; the eye is cloud...Blood pumps inside veins...To the floor it will rain... Loneliness takes hold... Consuming the bold....

It all fades away
It all will decay
Left standing alone
He now rests under stone

Time out

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 06:49:00 +0000

I'm nearly out of time… Frantic for some few precious moments, I hold my breath. A futile thing to do, I know, but maybe if I don't release it, that fateful last breath will never come. There is still so much I need to do! So many dreams haven't come true and so many more were begun too late for me to see the fruit. The hourglass is almost empty, I can feel my heart giving way, so I stubbornly hold a hand out to her… my one true love, my brightest dream come true. Though the light in my eyes is fading, I can still see her beautiful smile - like a burst of sunshine in my dimming world.Aaahh... ok i know if i keep on completing what i was writing above lots of people are going to kill me :p so lets not make this post emo!!

Yeah time out i desperately need a time out... time to relax time to rest!! University life is hectic i know... but its just too much... Midz *sigh* khair they are finally over i got a D in math.. and am even ashamed to tell what i got in economics but yup i got an A+ in computers... rest is still awaited...

I think all of you have stopped reading my blog :( Coz like last post which i adore so much, only two people commented on it... Where are you all? Comment kero warna maroun gaaa!!! =$

Oh yeah this picture above was taken on LSE Idol where atif was the chief guest and i was the official university photographer =D .... have pics uploaded on fb with him :p

Addiction

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Sat, 31 Oct 2009 22:48:00 +0000

I don't know what makes you think I'm so addictive, but I could clearly describe what makes you so addictive.... Almost everyone would fall for the ones that are being so kind to them. You, being the one who give me strength all along, giving me joy, oh, those jovial mood... The one's i can never resist? You know what this addiction will last forever and I will not try another drug, For you are the only one..... Oh i love you, love you alot.... And you blow me away, like the petals on a flower... taken off into the wind, to a land far far away. You make me believe in magic, like the first night star... shining onward in the night, then to disappear like magic. You make me your's yet forever free, like water flowing in the ocean coming and going as I please, yet your love remaing there for me.... You make me stand on the clouds, like an angel above the world... Without a heavy suffering heart, looking down from the clouds. You are in my heart... and its like inhaling a breath of fresh air.... You are with me which never makes me feel the sting of loneliness, oh yes am so addicted to you!

Love you more

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 10:07:00 +0000

<3
Love hai naah?

Tear me apart

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 03:39:00 +0000

I’m torn so deep inside,
There is no spirit to help me guide.
I love you were the last words said,
But now my soul is left for dead.
Tear me apart and show the rest,
My pain is just as you guessed.
I’m fallen and I’m tired,
Eternal sleep is desired,
I’m so torn apart,
Nothing can stop my bleeding heart.
I’m so hurt and I’m so lost,
I never knew this would be the cost.
Now I’m bleeding and losing air,
It would be easier if I knew you didn’t care.
Just take away my life support,
Please, it’s my last resort.
Quit telling me these lies,
Just start saying your goodbyes.
I’m torn apart; I’m tired of crying,
Don’t add to the flames, I’m already dying.
Now I’m just fading, there’s nothing left,
For life, I’m bereft.

Well this piece deserved to posted here as well this is/was originally for http://beyondthecanvas.blogspot.com anyways am still in love with what i made =D

:(

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 03:14:00 +0000

People please visit my blog http://beyondthecanvas.blogspot.com :( :(

My extended profile

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 14:24:00 +0000

Well there was this application on facebook... SOMEONE (-_^) told me to do it... so did it :D had nothing to update so socha yehi ker doun :p if anyone feels like doing it, do it!!

Midz going bad waisey :( anyways....

The Basics

Hair Color: Black

Eye Color: Light brown

Height: 5'9

Profession: Allah hi janda hai :p

Relationship Status: Filhaal Comitted ;)

Religious Views: I prefer to keep them to myself

What's Your Sign?: Taurus

Any Siblings?: 1 younger brother

Shoe size: 42

Where were you born?: Lahore

Righty or Lefty?: Righty

Any pets?: Parrots and ducks

What month were you born in?: May

My Favorites

Favorite Color: Black

Favorite Car: Porsche Cayenne turbo sports SUV

Favorite Movie: Fracture (its hard to decide one movie)

Favorite Hobby: Photography, digital art

Favorite Song/Singer: Everything - lifehouse

Favorite Book/Author: Angels and demons - Dan brown

Favorite School Subject: English

Favorite Vacation Destination: Scotland

Favorite Food: Chinese

Favorite Restaurant: Salt n pepper

Favorite Animal: White tiger

Favorite Celebrity : Anthony hopkins

Favorite Childhood Friend: Umer Imam ud din

Favorite Childhood Memory: Remedial classes in last year of school

Favorite Baby Name: Zeemal

Favorite Person In Your Life: I would prefer another question over here :p

Favorite Facebook Application : Likeness application

Favorite Possession: My watch

Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: KFC

Comedian: Jim (from according to jim)

Favorite Holiday: Spring break

Favorite Number: 3

Favorite Month: December

Favorite Flower: Orchids

Favorite Ice Cream: Paraline

Favorite Smell: Individule by Monte blanc

Favorite Drink: Peach cobbler

Favorite Cartoon Character: Scooby doo

Favourite kind of pants: Jeans kinda baggy

This or That

Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate

Big Mac or Whopper: Big mac

Coke or Pepsi : Coke

Beer or Wine: None

Coffee or Tea: Tea

Apple Juice or O.J.: Apple juice

Facebook or MySpace: Facebook

Summer or Winter: Winter

Windows or Mac: Windows

Cats or Dogs: Cats

Boxers or Briefs: Boxers

Rain or Shine : Rain

Chips or Popcorn: Chips

Salty or Sweet: Sweet (mix of both would be more preffered)

Plane or Boat: Plane

Morning or Night: Night

Movie or Play: Movie

Walk or Drive: Drive

Money or Love: Love

Breakfast or Dinner: Dinner

Forgiveness or Revenge: Forgiveness

Paint or Wallpaper: Paint

House or Apartment: House

Truth or Dare: Truth

Contacts or Glasses: Glasses

Mud or Jell-O wrestling: Mud

Skiing or Boarding: Skiing

Silver or Gold: Silver

Diamond or pearl: Diamond

Sunset or Sunrise: Sunset

Phone or in person: In person

Oldest, middle, youngest or only child: Oldest

Indoor or Outdoor: Indoor (depends)

Do You?

Have Any Pets: Yes

Have Any Children: No

Smoke: No

Drink: No

Exercise: Yes

Spend Your Life On Facebook: Used to

Play On A Sports Team: No, more like a solo player :p

Belong To Any Organizations: Yes, infact many

Love Your Job: I don't have one :(

Like To Cook: Yup

Play An Instrument: I wish!!!

Sing: Baysuri awaaz main :p

Dance: Yeah, couple dance is more preffered ;)

Speak Multiple Languages: Yup can speak english, urdu, spanish, punjabi and a bit of arabic

Ice Skate: Haven't tried but i sure want to

Swim: Love swimming

Paint: Love painting

Write: Writing is my vent

Ski: DUH!!! i live in pakistan

Juggle: Naah, not interested

Do you wish you lived somewhere else?: Yes wished this like a million times... would love to be in austrailia

Do you like roller coasters?: If they are not pakistani :p

Enjoy spending time with your Mother?: Yes, and prefer to do much often

Ever think about the price of gasoline?: Yeh sawal pakistani ney banaya ho gaa :p

Sleep with a fan on?: Yup, kambal bhi layta houn main :$

Have a good handle on spelling?: Good in spellings bad in grammar

Ever type "kik" instead of "lol?: Nope...

Know how to play chess?: Yes, am pretty good in playing chess

Ever miss being a little kid?: Nope... i like what i am :p

Want to get married?: As soon as possible ;)

Have You Ever
Stolen Anything: It could be said borrowing ;)

Been Drunk Before Noon: No

Had Sex In A Public Place: Sounds exciting!! Per NO!

Got Caught Telling A Lie: Yes, many times...

Got A Speeding Ticket: Yes

Been Arrested: Yes

Littered: Yes

Fantasized About A Co-Worker: aaaa... No

Cheated On A Test: YESHHH :D

Cheated In A Relationship: NO!!!!

Failed A Class: Subject yes, class No!

Screened Your Phone Calls: Yup, still do!

Eaten Food Off The Floor: Itnay buray din nahi aayee, Allah ka karam

Stuck Gum Under A Desk: Yes

Wished You Were Someone Else: Yes, once i wished that...

Cried During A Movie: Yes :$

Had A One Night Stand: Yes :(

Had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?: Yes =/

Had your heart broken?: aaa.... Haan

Had a good feeling about something?: Yes

Had a near death experience: Yes... 3 times or maybe 4

Swam in freezing water: Used to

Jumped off a house: Yes

Been attacked?: Yes

Bungee jumped: No, per i so wanna do it!

White water rafted: NO... mujheeyyy white water rafting kerni hai :(

Pulled an all nighter?: Yes, many times

Surfed: No :(

Lied about your age: Lol... Never

Broken a bone?: Thank God... No!

Misc.

Describe Yourself In One Word: Complexed

Biggest Fear: Loosing people close to me

Biggest Mistake: Too many to just write about one!

Your Proudest Accomplishment: Creating a name for my self

#1 Priority In Your Life: To have a

Dream Job: Microsoft - As a Head Graphic Designer

Special Talents: Photography, Digital art, stain glass, painting, writing, composing beats.

Where Are You Right Now: At my place :p

Where Would You Rather Be: At her place ;)

Famous Person You Want To Meet: Dan Brown

Place To Visit Before You Die: Venice

Song Played At Your Funeral: Fades away by Adil farooqi

What are you listening to right now: Innocente - Dellibrium

What makes you happy: To see people around me happy just because of me

What did you do yesterday: Go to university

Won any awards?: Yes, won 5 - 9 awards

Are you a good driver?: Yes, every paki driver is good ;)

Gotten any speeding tickets?: Yes, once...

Are you double jointed?: Huh??? :s

Last time you showered?: 15 mins back

What's the last dream you remember?: It was more like a nightmare

What side of the bed do you sleep on?: Left

Do you dress up on Halloween?: No

Are you outgoing or introverted?: Outgoing

Do you ever wish you were famous?: Yes

Have you ever done anything illegal?: Yes, driving while listening to phone is illegal too... :p

Where will you be 12 hours from now?: In university

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?: Yes it is :$

Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?: Yup, jeans t-shirt and a shirt over it

Is it easy for people to make you smile?: Yes, am a smily bacha =D

Does anyone hate you for no reason?: I am hated by many... most of them don't have a logical reason :)

Can you make yourself cry?: It's the easiest thing to do!

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?: Last night i slept alot, like 7 complete hours

Is your life simple or complicated?: It's simple... but somehow i make it complicated!

Are you taller than 5'4"?: Yes i am :)

What was your last place of employment?: A event managing company as the project manager :)

What color are your socks?: Black

Personal

Have you laughed until you cried: Yes

Have you found out who your true friends were: Yes i did, but am still in search of the truth

Met someone who changed you: Yup... even with that someone presently

Kissed anyone on your friends list: Yup :$

What were you doing at midnight last night: DUH!! Sleeping

Name something you CANNOT wait for: My khala coming from austrailia... (hun aa vi jao)

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope

What are you listening to right now: Runaway - Iio

What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: There are lots of such things, per now i don't wish to allah ka karam whatever happens happens for a reason :)

Last time you saw your father : 3 weeks back

Most visited webpage: http://beyondthecanvas.blogspot.com

Do people think you're weird?: Lol, yes

Are any of your friends mad at you?: At the moment yes!

What's one new thing you'd like to try?: Drugs

Would you get married before 19?: *sigh* i wish i could have... but well am already 20, and there is still no chance of it in the next 2 - 4 years :(

Can you crack your neck?: Nopee

Are you a bully? O_o: Hayeee... nahi toh!!

Do you type fast?: Oh yeah, as fast as anyone possibly can!

Do you get mad easily?: Yup, saroo houn full time (need to change this habit)

Do you like getting hyper?: I so love it :D

Do you like making kids cry?: Buhahaha! I do, i do!!

Who's your best friend?: Friends... Naam likha toh laraiyan ho jaye gi :p

What is the longest relationship you were in?: *sigh* 3 years.... with..... ahmmm

Firsts

First surgery : Few months back, foot surgery

First piercing : Not as yet

First best friend : Umer imam ud din

First sport you joined : Taekwando

First pet : Parrot

First vacation : Bahrain

First concert : Annie and jal

First crush : My class fellow :p

Very FIRST memory? : Remedial classes, we used to stay till 5 and have fun in school... in remidial classes which were cumpolsory for whole class

First person you had a fight with?: my brother, who else :p

First time you rode a bike?: Bachpan main, per drove first time in 2001

First car: Datsun

First person you slow danced with: Samia rizvi... on valentines day :p

If your house was on fire, first thing you'd grab?: My computer hard disk and my cell phone, and some letters and cards which are in my drawer

First Movie You Saw: Can't remember... but i loved DEVIL'S OWN

First time you were afraid: Afraid real wala... was like when i was 13 sat in the pirate boat in an amusement park... and the safety thing opened... i was afraid like anything!!

First song you remember listening to: Vital signs - tayra aur mayra... ya phir hum rahein rahein... and oh yeah Yeh sham phir nahi aaye gi... these were my first songs which i could actually remember

First thing you'd do with 5 million dollars: Open up my own firm

First thing you notice when you look in the mirror?: My eyes

First impression of your bf/gf?: Reserved

As of Now

Your ex and You: Don't talk anymore

I am listening to: Lips of an angel - Hinder

Maybe I should: Go make some food for me

I love: her ;)

My best friend(s): bohat saray hain, i don't wish to discriminate... per yes umair and nimra you are definitly on this list

I don't understand: Why people are so diplomatic and two faced

I have lost my respect for: Some people whom i used to love

The meaning of my display name is: Its my name... it means Allah ka banda

I will always be: the EMO guy

Love seems to: play an important roll in my life

I never ever want to lose: 5 important people in my life...

I get annoyed when: people pretend to understand me and in real they don't

Do you like parties?: Yes i do

Today I: had a fun day, yet i wished you were here!

I wish: to be with you

Are you neat or sloppy?: Neat

What kind of clothes do you like?: Casual

Are you mad at someone?: Yes

What do you do in your spare time: Write, photomanipulation or photography

Do you have any medical problems?: I am mental :p ok on serious notes Migrain... and few minors!

What kind of car do you have/want?: Have a economical car... want a sports SUV

Do you like to read? What?: Yes, books :p i mean suspense fiction is more prefferred... but am not too choosy anything and everything which interests me is fine with me

Do you cook?: Yup

Would you do drugs?: I would love to try atleast once or twice

Have you ever written a song?: Wrote over 15 - 20 songs till now, i wish i had good vocals

Do you like poetry?: i LOVE poetry

Have you written poetry?: Yup, over 200 verses

Have you dated someone older than you?: *sigh* yes i did

How much older?: 3 years

23rd October

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 06:08:00 +0000

A year passed, no not of us being together but of us being seperate. So i guess today would be a day of celebration for you and a day of moarning for me, per guess what i so don't wish to moarn, be sad or do any stupid thing today!!

It hit me now,
this is weak,
Letting the words you say,
Letting your actions,
your rudeness, your attitude,
make my tears leak,
I cut and screamed,
I bled, I cried.
I lost everything because of you,
For a while there I wished I died.
Yes i even tried.
But, I can see now
I don't need you anymore.
You're just a stupid person,
who walked out the door.
So no more crying,
no more bleeding,
no more dying,
no more needing.
Im doing fine now,
who knew!?
Im going to go on
and live without you.

Blaming you gives so much pleasure at time, per ok fine... no more bakwas today, i ain't whining... I ain't weak! But i just don't miss you anymore, not the way i used to! The only purpose of me writing this is because i actually remembered you today, wished that you were here... wishing to hold you for a moment.... Lol...

Aaj poocha ik dil daar ney mayra mizag,
per bay saktha laboun pay tayra naam aa gaya...
Hum ney tumharay baad naa kisi sey aas rakhi...
Ik tajurba hi kaafi tha,
Shaid....

Some people think am the guy who whines over his girl lol, so this post would be fun to read for those people i guess :p

I wish i could forget you per mobhabbat phir mohabbat hai.... kabhi dil sey nahi jaati.. hazaroun rang hain is key... Ajab hi dhang hai is key... Kabhi sehra, kabhi darya, kabhi jugnu, kabhi aansu... Hazaroun roop rekhti hai... Badhan jhulsa key jo rakh de... kabhi woh dhoop rekhti hai.... Kabhi ban ker yeh ek jugnu, shab-e-gham key andheroun main... diloun ko aas dayti hai... Kabhi manzil kinaaray per, pyaasa maar dayti hai... Aziyaat hi aziyaat hai... MAGAR... yeh bhi haqeeqat hai.... Mohabbat phir mohabbat hai, kabhi dil sey nahi jaati.....!
Love does fade away... But it leaves a mark, in the form of beautiful memories.... I don't have feelings at the moment for you or else i would have tried to sum it up in just few words what i wish to say.... You know what in the crowd, you’re just another face to me now... but even though i know that you’re gone, you leave a trace... Somehow like a whistle fades away, you never did...
With every para, every line i contradict my self... Contradict the things which i said... Mazay ki cheez houn naah main!!

1 year of seperation (weird sort, till few months back it was something like seperated yet connected wala scene)! WOW... we survived... balkay I SURVIVED and you thought i never would :)

Choro janay daytay houn in shakeesta dil ki aahoun ko....
Agar kisi ko ehsas hota toh hum bikhartay hi kyun.....

P.S I found my savior and unlike you... SHE CARES!!!

Everyone Knows

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 18:52:00 +0000

I stumble
Fall
Trip over my feet
And everyone
Seems
To notice
Every
Mistake
Every flaw
I have
Everyone
Notices
Making me feel
Exposed
Naked
With clothes on
I can’t
Hide
What’s wrong
Because
Everyone
Can see
Everyone
Knows
My secrets
So
Here I am
Feeling
Naked
With clothes on

Duckyy

noreply@blogger.com (Ubaid) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 06:14:00 +0000

Yeahhh we got two new ducks... still not named them as yet per yesh we got a pair :D Itni paarii hain mayray ko toh bohat mazzaa aayingzz in key sath khelnay kaa!! Pic vekhoo in ki:

Khair you all would be missing me hai naa? I know i know :p Mayray ko chutiyan hain thori, my midz got delayed :( :( Anyways i know i haven't been visiting your blogs... per the thing is either i upload my blog or check yours! So i would be visiting your blogs soon... pls do me a favor all of you just gimme the links of the posts which are most important to read... been missing you all!!

Yeah i hope i keep on blogging though :D

And behn di sirri kya takleef hai terrorist ko :(